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Introduction & Preface

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I began these diaries when about twenty five years old, having from youth kept a diary of some sort, which perhaps from habit made me think of recording my inner and secret life. Some ten years afterwards I met a woman with whom, or with those she helped me do, I did, said, saw, and heard well nigh everything a man and woman could do with their genitals, and began to narrate those events, when quite fresh in my memory a great variety of incidents extending over four years or more.

   I had from youth an excellent memory but about sexual matters a wonderful one. Women were the pleasure of my life. I loved cunt, but also she who had it; I like the woman I fucked and not simply the cunt I fucked, and therein is a great difference. I recollect even now in a degree which astonishes me, the face, colour, stature, thighs, backside and cunt of well nigh every woman I have had.

I have since gone through abnormal phases of amatory life, have done and seen things, had tastes and letches which years ago I thought were the dreams of erotic mad-men; these are all described, the manuscript has grown into unmanageable bulk; shall it, can it be printed? What will be said or thought of me, what become of the manuscript if found when I am dead? It has fulfilled its purpose in amusing me, now let it to the flames!

I have read my manuscript through; what reminiscences! Has anybody but myself faithfully made such a record? It would be a sin to burn all this, whatever society may say, it is but a narrative of human life, perhaps the everyday life of thousands, if the confession could be had.

Have all men had the strange letches which late in life have enraptured me, though in early days the idea of them revolted me? I can never know this; my experience, if printed, may enable others to compare as I cannot.

Shall it be burnt or printed? How many years have passed in this indecision? why fear? it is for other's good and not my own if preserved.
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    • VOLUME 1 >
      • Earliest Recollections
      • Memories of Childhood
      • Lust Made Me Cunning
      • I'm Not A Boy
      • My Rollicking Country Lass
      • A Dark Lantern
      • Silent Delight
      • Two New Servants
      • Into A Barn
      • The Fair
      • Camille
      • A Charming Harlot
      • VOLUME 1 MUSIC BOX SET
    • VOLUME 2 >
      • A French Virgin
      • Louise
      • Amorously Fascinating
      • The Pleasure Gardens
      • The Summer Sun
      • A Woman In Fear
      • A Regular Spanker
      • A Field Girl
      • Vauxhall Gardens
      • A Silent Kiss Or Two
      • A Third Class Carriage
      • A Finishing School
      • Laura
      • The Orgy
      • Fred Goes To India
      • Mary Davis
      • Irish Kate
      • One Dark Night
      • My Unhappy Home
      • Two Amorous Cats
      • Father's Favourite
    • VOLUME 3 >
      • Temple Bar
      • A Row In A Baudy House
      • Kitt & Pol
      • Sausage
      • Is That You Bob?
      • Cherrybob
      • Brighton Bessie
      • A Washerwoman
      • Among The Tombs
      • Esther & Matilda
      • A Cunning Jade
      • I Was Hooked
      • Sarah Mavis
      • Poses Plastiques
      • Louisa Fisher
      • A Fat Bummed Wench
      • Jenny
      • Thunder & Lightning
      • Hickery Pickery
      • Jenny's Sister
      • The Valence
      • Sunday
      • The Mayor
    • VOLUME 4 >
      • The Thames
      • Lizzie Stanley
      • A Sailor
      • A Ball
      • Mrs Yorkshire
      • Hoping For Happier Days
      • A Grenadier
      • The Tower
      • Café de l'Europe
      • A Seaside Town
      • On The Pier
      • The Roar Of The Waves
      • A Scotsman
      • On The Lake
      • Hotel Bellevue
      • Avignon
      • Avignon Station
      • Cassel In Germany
      • A Hailstone
      • An Anatomical Museum
      • In The Year 1851
      • Margate
    • VOLUME 5 >
      • A Diligence To Grenoble
      • The Town Of Nevers
      • Lucy & James
      • Lucy's Abortion
      • Tomlin & Joey
      • My Cousin Hannah
      • Hannah & Bates
      • The Argyll Rooms
      • The Great Victoria Hotel
      • The Omnibus
      • Hyde Park
      • A Tavern
      • Grindelwald
      • Lyon
      • Polly Carter
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